Key West!!

So I have a dream. Spend a month in Key West. Doing nothing much, watching the world go by. I tell my boss who says no way. I work in a small firm, I can't imagine leaving for a month. Now he's helping me look for houses, figuring out ways that I can work from there if I need to. It seems like it might be a dream coming true. It's exciting and a little unreal. It may take a year to come true, you just can't pack up and go for away for month. There's a lot of logistics to consider not to mention hurricane season. I spent one day in Key West before, right as Hurricane Andrew came to town. I'm not going through that again.

So, sooner than later I may be a beach bum. I can't wait.

To the One I Never Got to Know

I thought I knew you once, but it was just an illusion that you created for me. You created this perfect person that I couldn't help but to fall for; and then, as quickly as you created him, you destroyed him. You left me with an acquaintance that I barely know. We can't have a conversation that lasts longer than 10 minutes that doesn't involve weather or some other useless small talk. We feel a need to talk but have nothing to say to one another. It is awkward and uncomfortable. I've had better conversations with people on the bus and yet I can't stop thinking about you.

If I had one wish, I would make time pass faster. I would meet you later in life after you've had a chance to live all those dreams you talked about way back when. We would meet long after I had gotten over the pain of never getting to know the real you. We would be able to have an actual conversation. We would talk about what's in our hearts and in our souls. We would connect, they way I thought we connected in the beginning, but this time it would be for real. It wouldn't be a mere flirtation or an attempt to get attention. It would be a bond formed not by fate but by the desire to make our lives have meaning. We would be old enough to know that life's meaning can be found in true love.

But for now you are just somebody I talk to about the weather. Lately it seems to always be raining. How's the weather where you are?

I Should Smile More

When you're own mother thinks a picture of you doesn't look like you, there's something wrong. Everybody looks at this picture and thinks something is a little off about it. I guess the lesson for me is to smile more so that people will recognize me when I do.